Need and Want

When you need me but do not want me, then I'll stay. When you want me and no longer need me, then I have to go. It's rather sad really, but there it is

Somebody Do The Math

Is it possible that the feeling of love and hate towards someone/something grow simultaneously? Or would it cancel each other out and left you with no feelings?

I am terribly confused. Love to hate, hate to love. or is it indifferent?


But why is this adoration and sometimes hatred turns inside?

Pardon the Way I Stare

I need to pause my life. Or maybe, live in a slow motion mode. Or just stop. 

My reality and my dreams are clashing. With a loud BANG! Its like me against the world again.


p/s: To that someone, if you are reading this, please understand that I need to be alone. I don't need your msges/ calls/ likes on FB and etc. Sometimes, its better to be alone than to stress myself with u**l*** people who don't even deserve to be an issue in my life. Thanks 

Laugh and Cry. Live and Die

Whoaa! *puts both hand up in the air* I am guilty for neglecting this for what seems like aeons.!

So yes, I've definitely been MIA. At least online :)

So, what brings me back to blogosphere? Hmm..

I realised its new year already and every year I let my new year go without any serious resolution. This year, nothing has change much. I do not want to have any expectations out of this new year. 

I stopped making resolutions quite some time ago. It was either because I was too busy to want to resolve on doing something, or I was just afraid that I would not be able to fulfill them. 

Having resolutions somewhat raises expectations a few bars up. It may not necessarily be an obvious evil, but sometimes, that's what makes life so difficult to enjoy. 

So, this year, I just want to laugh more, live more and learn more. I leave the rest for Allah to decide. Amin

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L

Dedicated to You

To the girl who practices patience in her everyday life,

To the girl who controls her temper, and guards her words,

To the girl who gives out sincere smile to strangers,

To the girl who brightens another person's life with her loving nature,

To the girl who has taken the wonderful step to cover herself in hijab,

To the girl who prays she will be given the strength to start donning the hijab,

To the girl who supports her friends for donning the hijab,

To any girl who wakes up wanting to be a better person today, than she was yesterday

And to anyone who does even an atom of goodness with a sincere heart,

To each and everyone of you,

Just remember:

In Jannah are things:

An eye has never seen,

An ear has never heard, 

A mind can’t even imagine.

(Hadith Sahih Bukhari)

A mind can't even imagine, MasyaAllah. Those beautiful mansions we wish were ours, the perfect fairytale wedding that we have dreamed of since we were small, the handbag(s) we drooled over - nothing compares to the ultimate reward of Jannah. I hope these short lines will inspire you to do good as it did me :)


Xx.

Do It Anyway

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and sincere, people may cheat you;
Be honest and sincere anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the best you have, and it will never be enough;
Give your best anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your God;
It was never between you and them anyway.

~ Mother Teresa~

Believe It

Ever since I was a little kid I have ALWAYS believed that something BIG awaits me in the future. I don't know what it is but I don't think I've experienced it yet. I hope I'm not blindly being optimistic here. But I do know that God has something big and good in store for me, insyaAllah. Provided that I work and pray, of course.

p/s: Pisceans are very passionate but we are big dreamers. That scares me a little.

A Quarter and A Year

I was thinking earlier of how much FB effects our lives. I thought I knew how much, but apparently, it is a lot, lot more than I thought.

There are many reasons why we log on to FB. Some people find pleasure in uploading photos after photos of themselves and their daily activities. Some people love to tweet on FB. Some people spam other people's walls with nonsensical posts. Some check on their partners. Some flirt with other people's partners. And some others (like myself) are onlookers who like to stay on the outside looking in.

Considering the huge role that FB plays in our lives, it's really no wonder that most people can't function without it. For whatever reason it serves them. Because for people like me, one other huge role FB plays is to remind me of anniversaries, events and last but never least - BIRTHDAYS. I normally can't really remember my own.

And considering how terrible of a daughter/ sister/ friend I have been of late (that I have been so engrossed with my life aka work), I'm really surprised that some people remembered even without the aid of FB. Thank you for remembering me. Thank you for all the sweet and thoughtful wishes and prayers for me. I received phone calls and messages from friends whom I have not heard of in eons! I'm so thouched that they remembered me on my day and wished me well, despite my incessant silence and disappearance.

I know now that no matter what happens, there will be at least two handfuls of people who will genuinely be happy for my happiness and well- being.

It's amazing to be 26 ! Alhamdulillah. I am grateful that I have been given the oppotunity to stay on earth. To receive sweet revelations and to seek repentence.  I am grateful for people around me who love me ~ simply because of who I am, and not for who I try to be.

It's an amazing feeling.

Thank you Najwa, Naqi, Hairi for being one of the first to wish me. For sleeping past your bedtime (Hairi only, coz Najwa and Naqi doesnt sleep early, they are the Burung Hantu of the family) just so you could sing me a " Happy Birthday" song, only to be greeted with a groggy girl from the other side of the line (yes, I slept at 9.30pm)

And thank you, thank you and you. All for having super sweet and kind thoughts for me. Okay, I feel like crying. It's been a wonderful day! :) And I've had a wonderful life and rejoicing.

P/S: I am blessed with loving, happy, thoughtful family, my other half, bestfriends, good friends, friends,Ketua Pengarah,Big boss, colleagues, ex-students, ex-colleagues, surrounding me. I really wouldn't want it any other way.

Reciprocate

Priority.

1. The fact or condition of being regarded as more important, a thing regarded as more important than others.

Sometimes we make other people our priority. But we often make that mistake where we hope that they would reciprocate by making us theirs as well.

And, ys, I am fed up and this must be because I am tired (of everything).

I need to breathe deeply before I explode.

Please Tell Me..

That i am in a good hand? Just convince me that I am not wrong. I will love you with all of my heart and soul, I will give you everything you need.


Should I wait till one day, you turn yourself against me, and I will be left alone and heartbroken? That's all i need.


Will you be my kindest and most loyal entourage? You wont leave me bruised, and you wont let me walk alone without you right?


If you promise me to, then I will get you out of the shelf :).


Awak cantik sangat la kasut!

How to Make the Most of Every Day

1. Stop worrying about things that may or may not happen in the future, and enjoy today.
2. Appreciate the people, things and opportunities you have in your life.
3. Be kinder than necessary, because everyone we meet is fighting some kind of battle.
4. Ask yourself, "what I want to do today" and go after it!
5. Do something just for you. Put yourself first!
6. Try your hardest at everything you do. Even when things don't work out, you'll  know you gave your all.
7. Focus on the positivity.
8. Say "THANK YOU" as often as you can.
9. Do something nice for someone else for no reason at all.
10. Tell people how much they mean to you. Dont Wait!

Change, is it?

We always say that people change. She has changed. He has changed. S has changed. I mean, if we really care, we'd stop and ponder about this "change" we so often blurt out whenever our close acquaintances, friends or relatives, show the signs.

That we're not on the same wavelength, we don't go to the usual place anymore, or our opinions differ for that matter.

Often, we hear married people after years of being married to one another, living together complaining how their spouses have changed. I mean, really? Because if we really care to stop and ponder, people don't change as time goes by, but time reveals  of who they really are.

So yes, think about it. We don't change, but our true colours begin to emerge and that is the revelation.